أَيُّوبَ 10

١ 1 «قَدْ كَرِهَتْ نَفْسِي حَيَاتِي. أُسَيِّبُ شَكْوَايَ. أَتَكَلَّمُ فِي مَرَارَةِ نَفْسِي

I hate my life! Let me speak freely about my complaints—I can't keep my bitterness to myself.

٢ 2 قَائِلًا لِلهِ: لَا تَسْتَذْنِبْنِي. فَهِّمْنِي لِمَاذَا تُخَاصِمُنِي!

I will tell God, “Don't just condemn me—tell me what you have against me.

٣ 3 أَحَسَنٌ عِنْدَكَ أَنْ تَظْلِمَ، أَنْ تُرْذِلَ عَمَلَ يَدَيْكَ، وَتُشْرِقَ عَلَى مَشُورَةِ ٱلْأَشْرَارِ؟

Do you enjoy accusing me? Why do you reject me, someone you made with your own hands, and yet smile on the scheming of the wicked?

٤ 4 أَلَكَ عَيْنَا بَشَرٍ، أَمْ كَنَظَرِ ٱلْإِنْسَانِ تَنْظُرُ؟

Do you have human eyes? Do you see like human beings do?

٥ 5 أَأَيَّامُكَ كَأَيَّامِ ٱلْإِنْسَانِ، أَمْ سِنُوكَ كَأَيَّامِ ٱلرَّجُلِ،

Is your life as short as mortal beings? Are your years as brief as those of humanity,

٦ 6 حَتَّى تَبْحَثَ عَنْ إِثْمِي وَتُفَتِّشَ عَلَى خَطِيَّتِي؟

that you have to examine my wrongs and investigate my sins?

٧ 7 فِي عِلْمِكَ أَنِّي لَسْتُ مُذْنِبًا، وَلَا مُنْقِذَ مِنْ يَدِكَ.

Even though you know I'm not guilty, no one can save me from you.

٨ 8 «يَدَاكَ كَوَّنَتَانِي وَصَنَعَتَانِي كُلِّي جَمِيعًا، أَفَتَبْتَلِعُنِي؟

You made me and shaped me with your own hands, and yet you destroy me.

٩ 9 اُذْكُرْ أَنَّكَ جَبَلْتَنِي كَٱلطِّينِ، أَفَتُعِيدُنِي إِلَى ٱلتُّرَابِ؟

Remember that you shaped me like a piece of clay—are you now going to turn me back into dust?

١٠ 10 أَلَمْ تَصُبَّنِي كَٱللَّبَنِ، وَخَثَّرْتَنِي كَٱلْجُبْنِ؟

You poured me out like milk, you curdled me like cheese.

١١ 11 كَسَوْتَنِي جِلْدًا وَلَحْمًا، فَنَسَجْتَنِي بِعِظَامٍ وَعَصَبٍ.

You clothed me with skin and flesh; you wove my body together with bones and muscles.

١٢ 12 مَنَحْتَنِي حَيَاةً وَرَحْمَةً، وَحَفِظَتْ عِنَايَتُكَ رُوحِي.

You granted me life and showed me your kindness; you have taken great care of me.

١٣ 13 لَكِنَّكَ كَتَمْتَ هَذِهِ فِي قَلْبِكَ. عَلِمْتُ أَنَّ هَذَا عِنْدَكَ:

But you kept these things hidden in your heart. I know your purpose was

١٤ 14 إِنْ أَخْطَأْتُ تُلَاحِظُنِي وَلَا تُبْرِئُنِي مِنْ إِثْمِي.

to watch me, and if I sinned, then you would not forgive my wrongs.

١٥ 15 إِنْ أَذْنَبْتُ فَوَيْلٌ لِي، وَإِنْ تَبَرَّرْتُ لَا أَرْفَعُ رَأْسِي. إِنِّي شَبْعَانُ هَوَانًا وَنَاظِرٌ مَذَلَّتِي.

If I'm guilty I'm in trouble, if I'm innocent I can't hold my head high because I'm totally disgraced as I look at my sufferings.

١٦ 16 وَإِنِ ٱرْتَفَعْتُ تَصْطَادُنِي كَأَسَدٍ، ثُمَّ تَعُودُ وَتَتَجَبَّرُ عَلَيَّ.

If I do hold my head high you hunt me down like a lion, showing how powerful you are in hurting me.

١٧ 17 تُجَدِّدُ شُهُودَكَ تُجَاهِي، وَتَزِيدُ غَضَبَكَ عَلَيَّ. نُوبٌ وَجَيْشٌ ضِدِّي.

You repeat your arguments against me, you pour out more and more of your anger against me, you send fresh armies against me.

١٨ 18 «فَلِمَاذَا أَخْرَجْتَنِي مِنَ ٱلرَّحِمِ؟ كُنْتُ قَدْ أَسْلَمْتُ ٱلرُّوحَ وَلَمْ تَرَنِي عَيْنٌ!

So why did you allow me to be born? I wish that I had died, and nobody had ever seen me!

١٩ 19 فَكُنْتُ كَأَنِّي لَمْ أَكُنْ، فَأُقَادَ مِنَ ٱلرَّحِمِ إِلَى ٱلْقَبْرِ.

It would have been better if I had never existed, taken straight from the womb to the grave.

٢٠ 20 أَلَيْسَتْ أَيَّامِي قَلِيلَةً؟ ٱتْرُكْ! كُفَّ عَنِّي فَأَتَبَلَّجَ قَلِيلًا،

I only have a few days left, so why don't you leave me alone so I can have a little peace

٢١ 21 قَبْلَ أَنْ أَذْهَبَ وَلَا أَعُودَ. إِلَى أَرْضِ ظُلْمَةٍ وَظِلِّ ٱلْمَوْتِ،

before I go to where I shall never return from, the land of darkness and the shadow of death—

٢٢ 22 أَرْضِ ظَلَامٍ مِثْلِ دُجَى ظِلِّ ٱلْمَوْتِ وَبِلَا تَرْتِيبٍ، وَإِشْرَاقُهَا كَٱلدُّجَى».

the land of total darkness where death's shadow lies, a place of chaos where light itself is darkness.”